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Things are far better now than before, and I'm glad to say that it started getting better when I did what I thought was the right thing to do.

I don't really have to sacrifice my happiness and satisfaction just for some people I don't click with. It isn't necessary for us to click, though, but at least, don't take me for granted and make an effort to develop some sense of friendship.

I've been receiving random texted quotes from my contacts telling that friendship isn't about finding golds in the rocks of life, but forming golds as time goes by, that friendship isn't about how fun you feel when you're with each other, but it's with acceptance without hatred, envy, etc. ... And many more (and they're all right) which really hit me. And I believe I somehow made a little mistake by getting easily freaked out by my petty feelings, but there are times I feel so fortunate I was like that just because I feel so better now. I AM.

Err. I don't think you'll really get me.

Anyway, I've revived my cheerfulness now. I can be who I really am. I just don't wanna sit still wearing a long face and be ignored. I wanna feel visible when I am. Often times, it is a person's fault himself when he becomes ignored, and 90% of the fault is with him, not with the ones ignoring him (unless they intentionally do). That was me before. I blame my being ignored to others. So immature of me.

Now, I just wanna make things right. I don't wanna believe I'm bad and that there's a problem with me. I wanna do the right things now.

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2 weeks din namin 'tong pinaghandaan, buti nalang natupad na din. Nakabawi na ako dahil di ako nakasama nung pumunta silang MOA. Yehey!

Shoooot. Nakakamiss talaga ang HS friends ko. Kakaiba... walang katulad... Mahal na mahal ko sila. Nakakamiss lalo.

So, dresscode dapat ng mga makakasama ay colorful at may headband - kaya nagsuot ako ng dark blue jeans at black shirt. Oha. Colorful. Hehehe. Pang-insulto. Pero si Trish at Pat, ayos! Colorful talaga - yellow shirt and light blue skinny jeans kay Trish; light blue shirt and red skinny jeans naman kay Pat. Naka Blair headbands din sila. Ako... hindi. Siyempre pa. Si Trixie late na nakarating, lalo naman si Janelle. Haha! Nanlibre ng ice cream si Trixie at nagpapicture kami kay kuya Ice cream boy... Salamat kuya Snowpy. Si Janelle naman nanlibre ng Mcdo fries.

Nagkaraoke din kami nila Patricia (Pat), Patricia (Trish) at Patricia (Trixie). Uminom ng Vodka raspberry flavor at... yung blue (ewan ko kung anong flavor nun), at kumain ng Pizza sa loob ng Karaoke Hub. Ayun, nagwala lang kami dun at nagpicture ng nagpicture ng nagpicture...

Nagfit din kami ng mga dress sa Dep't Store at Hypermarket. Nagpicture din ... kasi di naman bibilhin yun. Hehehe. XD

BASTA MASAYA AT NAKAKAMISS. ILY GIRLFRIENDS. <3

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I MUST WRITE SOMETHING.

I should've just kept totally silent about how I felt. I should've not expected everyone to understand me.

It's true that it's very difficult to understand a human being. Right now, I don't understand myself. :-/

I just don't wanna believe I'm that bad. I wanna change and I am changing what needs to be changed.

I said I don't wanna feel like this, anymore. But it seems inevitable.

<inserts curse here> I'm gonna live like this forever... Full of worries, sadness, pretentions.

I'm gonna LAUGH like there's no tomorrow to overshadow the sadness.

YAHOO!

Seriously, in real life, I laugh so hard. It makes me feel alive and makes me forget SADNESS. So, let's all LAUGH. HAHAHAHA. (corny din ako irl .)

That's why I don't wanna sit steadily, stay still without talking to anybody. It reminds me of loneliness. I'm so afraid of loneliness. <curse> I'm so childish and clumsy.

It's so good for me that I have this blog. 'Cause here, I'm allowed to let all these kinds of things out.

Gets n'yo ba ako?

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Ay. Type lang ako ng type, wala naman pinopost.

Kahapon, Linggo, umuulan ng malakas nung umaga, wala pa naman akong payong dahil naiwan ko sa isang room namin. Edi, pagbaba ko ng FX, bumubuhos na ang ulan, at wala akong payong. Sinubukan kong ipatong sa ulo ko yung bag ko, pero balewala din, mababasa pa mga gamit ko lalo. Suot ko pa naman nun ay tsinelas lang, at madulas pa ang tsinelas kong yun, kaya minsan naiiwan ng paa ko. Nung unang beses na nangyari yun pagbaba ko ng FX, namukhaan ko yung lalakeng kasabay ko sa FX na inakala kong lasing dahil nakatingin sa akin nung pagsakay ko ng FX. Nakita niyang binalikan ko yung tsinelas ko, tapos sabi niya, "Pwede ka na dito oh.." sabay offer sa payong niya. Haaay, salamat. Nagtatrabaho daw siya sa Mapua. Tingin ko maintenance siya, pero ang pagkakarinig kong sabi niya "Marketing?" Weird.

ANG BAIT NG DIYOS. SALAMAT PO!

Pagdating ko ng Mapua, di na kami magkasama, nauna na kasi siya dahil bumili ako ng payong ko. Di man lang ako nakapagpasalamat. Tsssk.

NSTP ko tuwing Linggo. Sa 6 na araw sa isang Linggo na pumapasok ako ng Mapua, ang Linggo ang pinakamasayang araw ko. Nun ko lang nararamdaman na "andun" talaga ako.

Ang laki talaga ng problema ko sa buhay. Maliit lang siguro para sa iba, pero pinapalaki ko.

Ayy.. may assignment pa pala ako. NEXT TIME NALANG ULI.

PRAY FOR ME.

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